As Airplanes Fly

May 28, 2019 I will probably be crying the entire time I am writing this because not only is this journal entry something that is close to my heart, but I am also raging with emotions right now… dang hormones. Haha but seriously, I have about a break down a day with no signs if it easing up at all. Haha.  Let’s start with how it all started. It was Wednesday the 22nd and I go in with Taylor to Dr. Kirkman’s office to go get checked and to get my membranes stripped. Well, apparently I was not dilated enough for him to want to strip my membranes BUT he was concerned about my blood pressure because it was high. I figured it was high because all day I figured I was getting my membranes stripped… Well I was not, which I was disappointed about. He said to go to an instacare on Saturday to see if my blood pressure was still high, and if it was, to go to Labor and Delivery to see what they had to say about it. Well… I actually decided to just go on Thursday because I was

As I have been preparing for my baby boy, who is scheduled to be here in T-minus 14 days (at least... that is if he WANTS to come), not like I'm counting or anything haha, I have been thinking about the best days of my life. Of course, my wedding day has been by far the best day of my life - not only did I get to marry Taylor, who I was deeply in love with, but I was able to be surrounded by family and friends, at my favorite place during one of the most beautiful times of the year. All in all, it was perfect. I keep thinking about all of the planning, preparing, and developing that took place to make that day what it was. Just like my wedding day planning, I have been planning and preparing for baby Eli to come. However, as much I was able to prepare and plan for my wedding day, having a baby can be as much prepared for as I would like, but it does not mean that it will go according to plan. Thankfully I have Taylor by my side so that no matter what does happen, I will have h

I was watching "Bones" one of mine and Taylors favorite TV shows. I had only gotten 2 negative pregnancy tests but couldn't help but let it bother me as I watched the main character "Temperance" give birth to her first baby on "Bones". I had tears streaming down my face and wanted so badly to have a baby. I stubbornly decided to take another pregnancy test. Background - Why was I so disappointed with 2 negative pregnancy tests even though we had only been trying 2 months? In 2016 I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid arthritis and was ignorantly put on a medication which would make it so having a baby in the next 6 years would be a very bad thing. The Dr who put me on that horrible medication was just the in-between Dr until I could meet with an actual rheumatologist. When I met with my goddess rheumatologist, Kristina Woosley NP, she was horrified that I was only 25 and on that medication! Even though I was only on that medication for 10 days, it was goin

I'll start out by telling you that yes, Taylor passed his stage 3 of commercial piloting license. Was it easy getting there, no! Let me tell you why. Summer passed by as fast as a sun rises and then a sun set, like it always does. Before we knew it, Taylor was expected to get 40 hours of flying in a month which was more than he was use to because he is a full time student and part time employee at Pepperidge Farm. If he wanted to stay on track for graduation, he had to do it. After talking to his employer, and negotiating with his flight instructor, they designed a schedule and made a plan for him to accomplish these daunting 40 hours. Of course at the end of the 40 hours is a flying test and that flying test took place on the same day as the "Add or Drop" date at the university to take the class he needed to take. It was stressful to say the least. During this time, I got a little taste of the pilots wife life. Pretty much I saw Taylor very little. This was especia

It's a tradition in my family that when someone has a birthday or a special time in their life, we do a family car wash. This is where the special person we are celebrating, lays on their back as the rest of the family rubs their hands on their back, with the occasional booty poking for jokes. I had just been through another break up and was again, single. But it was my birthday and we were not going to think about that. I was 25 at the time and I honestly didn't feel that different. Most people feel old at 25 because they think "A quarter century". But not me, I felt comfortable.  It was dad's turn, and these words have stuck by me from that moment and especially in the moments I question if I can be a pilots wife. "Collie, you are confident and independent." It wasn't until recently that I understood why God had given me the life of independence - As a pilots wife, it is imperative to be independent. Ya, I had heart breaks, lonely times, and

I was walking between the HYPR building, on my way to the Education building at Utah State University, when my right pocket started vibrating. Taylor and I had been engaged for 2 months so when I saw him calling - smile. I knew Taylor had been wondering what to change his major to since he decided he didn't really want to be a teacher. It was then, on the phone, he wanted to get my thoughts. I had no idea he was thinking of becoming a pilot and we didn't really think it was an option because of how expensive the program is. He explained how he talked with the advisor about his Air Force military benefits and how he would be able to get school paid for if he enrolled in aviation. He was calling to see how I felt about him being a pilot. This moment is something I have returned to a million times, and it is one that brings so much peace into my life. We had been praying for him to know what to study and to later do with his career. I have to say that up until that moment, Heaven